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With a flu and headache and fever i left behind,
With the pile of work i left behind,
with the worries i have over work and family

And With a heart to embrace God's creations ;
And With a heart to to teach the little ones about Him;
And with a mind to raise up leaders;

With a mind knowing that He is in control of even my work and home,
that He knows what is best for me (even in terms of my relationships)
that with His help, All things are possible...

So Let's go and Reach, Teach and Keep these young boys and girls for Christ!


Off to camp, i go...

So today is LiveWire's 2nd Birthday....Say, shout, ChEERS!!!!!!!!!!

And i am thankful for the opportunity to be able to help them take the pictures...I mean, I was like the "official photographer"? Isn't that Cool or what? (Alright, say I am just very excited to be able to take the pictures)

To VB(even though u can't read this entry, but if you can, then i got to change my url alr), thanks for the camera, for it capture the beauty of the celebration! and Yes, i love the camera....(Muaks to the camera!)

and seriously it can get quite tiring, was rather hungry by the end of the evening....But its fun and great.

"There is a wonderful ancient Western tradition that allows a woman to propose to a man. But, only on 29 February

Only once every 4 years. In a Leap Year"

"There is a place I want to go, but I don't know where.
There is someone I want to meet, but I don't know who."

A Leap year that happens once every 4 years....A tradition that allows a girl to propose to the man she likes...
A tradition that speaks for the modern woman today...

I am just curious.

So i had the opportunity to sleep-in for a while and go for second service, instead of the usual 9am.... Coming a that time, i managed to catch them while they were having their prayer time and recreation time, and this was what i saw; Kids will always be kids, even when they pray, they also show their active side by silently moving hteir bodies....they jus can't stop moving... DOVER PARK HOSPICE WALK Rushed to 6 Battery Road, after lunch...

and yea, put on my sun-flower thingy and went off for a 5km walkkkkkkkkk Much as i thought it would be a sad thing to be walking with cols (even though they allowed family) but i would say, it was a great bonding time...with bosses and everyone...Everyone was dressed not to the nines but to the colour of sunny yellow sun-flowers :) Due to VB being wrapped up, in his costume, i was given the opportunity to be the "official photographer" of the event...Woohooooo(said, Praise God!) I had a fun time though it was tiring, running up and climbing around....and to many who said to me, "ME again??" I'm sorries dearies, u jus were around me that's why... Hey, but i managed to run to as far as i could....and as slow as possible...we saw the bumble bees (Baby Rachel), stuffed sun-flowers (Pat), modern day chun-li(DT), Sunflower lawyer(In), Stop the sunflower thieves (CP)...it was cute and many wouldn't believe that we are a firm... It was tiring though, at the end of the walk, i was like about to squat at the corner, like the coffee shop lady and Noooo..."more pictures of the prize presentation, pls..." Here we go again..... Thank God, ZY parked his car at Central and did not mind sending us back to 6 Battery Road, which was like 10 mins walk away cos we were too tireddddd....so no more moving and just sit and stone in the car... Dinner was with new frens made, at the meaty restaurant, which i don't wanna dine at again...cos its simply too meaty!!!! Today was the day i discovered something... ps. For the pictures, pls check out my album on FBbbbbb

I haven logged onto this computer for sometime, esp so for my Lj entries...which are dying for a while.....
To realise that my brother has re-boot the whole computer and yea, ALL MY PICTURES, MUSIC, DOCUMENTS ARE GONE!!!!!!!!

I am defintely sad bout my pictures n music but looking it at another angle, i ought to remember that pictures are jus part of the memories, and the best memories are already in my head, never to be deleted...maybe it was time to really have a clean-up but even then, if my saved-links of friends' blogs are GONE! This i have nothing to say ...

btw, Hi people! I am still alive and very well, in fact i have been exercising at least 2 times a week now.....Thank God for colleague who ran with me for the i-run thingy, 5km, every tuesday.....Thursdays might be in the gym, with either Body combat or Body pump..The last pump class left me half-dead.....and the next time u see me, my muscles should be quite toned alr...if i keep going for the classes too.....

Like what the person said, sometimes we ought to have our selfish time to ourselves and i added one line myself, selfish time with God and me.....How cool is that?

In every moment of our lives, trust God and know that He is FOR me and NEVER against me.
Praise God for His peace, joy and many laughters, that He has blessed me with.

Even at this time of my life, i can't believe the big D word might just appear in my life...

Work this week has been "chiong sua" mood....non-stop it comes but somehow it never goes (at least not yet)

I learnt something new this week...
When u go on leave, make sure u clear ALL your work n if possible, anticipate what may happen n prepare for it (if possible)
When boss go on leave, make sure u have the SAME anxiety as if u r going on leave and complete everything for the boss, n then don't go on leave (u also never apply leave what.....Besides even if u apply, sure can get meh? boss alr said he taking loh)

Anyway even with 1 boss on leave, i seriously know its not time to relax, its just but the begining.

Well, Thank God this whole week has been good....despite the crazy workload...God has been good. actually He is always good to us..There are indeed many interesting things in the office n cyberspace is not the place to say them...To God, is the right person to speak to...

One of the interesting conversations(think my cols were able to figure it out)
U: Eh...she finish talking to the person alr not?
Me: Not yet leh
U: Huh...this one quite urgent leh...Think i should go n disturb her?
Me: R u crazy? Alr the thunderstorm came n brush us by...now u want to invite Tsunami come too?
U: No lah...quite urgent leh.
In the end, the col did go n find the weather person..n no, Tsunami did not come....
Go figure who are the people above, if you r bored....

After this 1st Aid lesson, a little break will go a long way....its time to start running again...

So its been a long time since i last typed a work on this cyberspace...

Anyways, its been all tiring since work is getting crazier with trial dates coming up and what nots...
First-Aid lesson has burned some of my saturdays alr....Housework has been kept to a side for the moment....

Caught up with the girls after meeting in church, talked random n stuff...
and Yes, I am getting MORE N MORE SENSITIVE to the words that are so commonly used but SHOULD NOT be used at anytimes....Seriously!

It was a good time of catching up admist those words......abit of gossip and checking up, was a good therapy n i wanna have more of these therapies........

EVERYTHING BEGINS WITH PRAYERS!
IF U LEARN TO BE PERSISENT PRAYING EVERYDAY, THEN U WILL LEARN TO BE PERSERVE AND BEGIN TO HAVE FAITH IN OUR CREATOR, JESUS
(something Auntie Jo was sharing with me)

DO NOT THINK OF WHAT FRIENDS U WILL HAVE, THINK OF WHO GOD WILL BRING INTO YOUR LIFE...
(A random thought but i need to set this into my mind...start praying about it....)

1st-Aid lesson starts..
 
8 AM IN THE MORNING!!!!! till 5PM.

Good Morning to those who sleep in..I will not be able to do so for the next 3 weeks but in case, u choke or cut yourself badly or something like on your hand or palm, or elbow, i will be able to save u...since i learnt it alr..

I try my very best and meanwhile, pls support me, by helping me be my model, Hahaha...while i endure sleepless nights so in order that i will be able to save u in the future, should the need arise (which i pray NOT!)

Sleep earlyyyyyy

Dear God, I thank You for sending me to this camp, as a Juinor Commander.

Early in the morning, we were wondering what would the kids have in their bags, like
would they bring their pillow, blosters and blankets so and so forth.....
Whether what would be the cutest pyjamas we will see....and some other Qns, which i can't remember for now...

During the whole camp, i had the opportunity to see the children in their various ways n little dramas.

Camp Introduction;
I saw excitement, anxiety, fear

Lesson time;
I saw their curiousity arising and kids being kids, were innocent and not afraid to ask any questions. 
In fact if they can't wait, they simple shout out the questions, not bothered by whether anyone will laugh or not.
I saw their zest to learn the lessons taught...no one slept in class

Break-time/Patrol Corner;
I see minds working hard while some were following instructions
I saw hands scrambling to finish their work, esp when i say there is 3 mins more to go, the kids hate that
I saw their determination to get the gold medal of achievement when they practise their cheer and songs
I saw how they took pointers to their strive and worked harder.
I saw how the little encouragements brought their spirits even higher and pushed them to even greater heights.

Meal-times;
I saw food and excited faces
I saw many jolly faces..(btw, i think kids these days are eating a bit too much at times)

Lights-out;
I saw sleepy and hungry faces (they claim they were VERY HUNGRY) but when i stood there to make sure they sleep, suddenly, hunger disappeared and they were sleepy again
I saw the little boys and girls in dreamland
I saw how comfortable each of them were, in their PJs and sleeping bags with their pillows and blankets, they sure brought their house to camp (house - helper = camper)

Morning Assembly;
I saw how they ignored their fears and reported their strength to SG. ( i mean, if you are not very good at reporting, u must be very scared to do so, right?)
I saw how they await for the next instructions and when it does not come soon, well, they have their own things to attend too!

Camp-fire;
I saw amazed faces when the magician was showing his skills
I received many questions about it (like i know a thing like that)
I saw God's hands in the midst of this show, esp when the magician spoke to them about God
That night, I wanted the kids to sleep early, for i know that God has His ways and He was working in them that night, He also wanted His children to rest.

Graduation/Prize presentation;
To the kids, it was this cermony that they wil know whether they passed or failed the camp. It is also this award cermony to know whether their efforts for the song and cheer and everything that they have been doing, have paid off...
I saw anxiety, as results were not going to be announced so early in the cermony
I saw excitement, as they went to stage to present their cheers and songs, they prepared a lot time for this.
I saw them comforting each other, when they were stressed out.
 
Most of all, I saw God's love for the children in this camp. Indeed, in this camp, it has been an eye-opener for me, as I really saw our Master Ranger's HEARTBEAT for each of the kids. and that is to
REACH, TEACH AND KEEP YOUNG BOYS AND GIRLS FOR CHRIST! 
I thank God, i saw His vision and goal and Yes, now that i see it, I am going to align my goals to His, my dreams to His. I saw His passion for ALL HIS CHILDREN, including the commanders, He took care of all His rangers, from the Discovery to the Juinors, to the LCs, to simply EVERYONE involved in the camp.

God, thank You for granting me wisdom to speak into the children's lives. Although they may not remember what I told them, I know God, everything that has been said or done, will never go wasted because God, experiences will never go wasted with You around.

I thank God, i was able to make it for this camp. To the many camps (like this to come), bring it on, i say! Somehow I miss campings, much as i dislike the toilets, the mossies and the beds (i mean chairs) we sleep on.....Can't wait for the year end camp...Woo HOOOOOOOOOOO
 

This morning, He spoke to me. No..He did not scold me nor did He threaten to leave me....He told me, " There are many weeds in my life and i am like a flower bud trying my best to grow but somehow the fear of the weeds told the better of me, even though i know if i ever wanted to get out and i just call upon Him, He will come and help me...But He also told me that He sees in me a flower blossom, and I know that the flowers that has been taken care of, by Him will be very very beautiful, for He is generous with His nutrients and fertilizers. For if i ask, He shall give....." 

He is just so great, He knows that I am hurting and that I think that just because i have my own problems, that i am not as good enough to help others...(as i thought so)

I walked home from the bus-stop, almost skipping a little dance..

Somehow i did to remind myself that home is the place where He is at..But today i forgot all about it.

I was tired from the washing and cleaning up and my brother did not have to do a thing, since girls when they get married, have to do all the housework.. (Maybe i shld ramble about this in my next few entries, since its late alr)...

Await my next post yea :)

And so we gathered at the Vista at Big Splash located in the corners of East Coast Park..
It was a good time spent with frens although i wish that some of the rest of the gang would be there, like Raudhah and EeTing...

I look back and wish i could celebrate ............
with the Joy of the Lord, for it is only Him who brings to me the joy..

Nope! Not me!
My fan did...Which means, my fan just died on me...

Pls help me pray that the weather in the nights will be windy (i can feel kind) until i can get the new fan...
Thank u all...**Muaks**

To the gym we went!!!!

Met the girls at the gym, YL, KW, ANN
I reached bout 6.30 (quite early alr!) and i think they reached at 5plus....

Spinning & Body Pump (Killer!!!!!)

Body Combat & Body Pump (Killed them!)

Ice-creamed at Tom's after that and HUGE QQ-fish balls for a late dinner......

Lots of laughter and nonsence..I love this life :)

Work this week has been good...It was especially productive on Friday....
It has been good cos everything went well and the lady was not around....She was on leave, it was her birthday on wed and i think she have had a great holiday with her friend.

It was good because we could finally slow down on our work for a while, catch a breather and move on with a better state of mind....
My other boss however, was in a state of emo.....for the few days, he did not smile much and was even grumpier than before....Attempts to ask, "Are you okay?" was to no avail, since when i stand in his room, I have a tendancy to want to run out fast...Dun ask me why, cos i also don't know..

Friday was good, since i had quite a bit of work to rush.....some correction tape to be bought and used........
Some pieces to be photocopied while others to be scanned...
There was not much noise, except for our laughters, when big boss was not around...

When a massager was found by me, in my col's room (I bet he chuck that thing right after he got it), it brought madness fun and there was RA talk going around....and, no i was not sharing...I was just listening...they call this "early education", geee

Today i broke a record....I never left work earlier than 6....and actually i was given permission by my boss to leave at 5, since my application for 1/2 day leave was not approved...but i did not, since there was not a need....
i left office at 5.45pm...A NEW RECORD SET!

So i guess, this is the latest achievement set by me so far....

Crap! My email has been spreading some weird virus

Today, i cried a bit after stepping out of her room....
She screamed as usual...but she did not hear the reasons....whatever reasons given was not heard but thrown away right away...

She scolded me about the responsibilities of a secretary....how one should

1. Handle her boss administrative stuff..
2. Handle her boss' personal stuff
3. Because they are personal, they are also highly confidential
4. She did not remind me, but to make coffee for her every morning, honey water and coffee in the afternoon - and i found out that in this med-large firm, i am the ONLY secretary to do that....and I did not complain a bit...

She is a lady, a traditional boss with modern dressing and view on life......and i guess it is because of her traditional ways that scared many away....

I could not take it today because she kept claiming that she did not understand me at all....but the thing was, did she ever try to do so? Wasn't i trying my best? or is my best not enough for you? Then what is your best?

Are you hoping deep down that all your subordinates are actually robots who will not get sick nor tired nor complain a single thing? Neither do they talk back to you and ask you for OT pay?
If that is the case, then I am sorry, I am a human being, a child of God, am NOT a robot for you to control.....I will strive to give my best because whatever I am doing, i know it is all for the glory of the Lord, and not for you...You can try to run me down and say nasty things but once the tears has been dropped and dried, the ugly memories will be gone and I will continue to strive my best for you....

So what if i am a 22 year old? Would it make a difference if i was a 32 or 42 years old lady? Would you have understood better? You say you don't understand me.....but what do you know? Do you think i understand you? If put into my own words, all i can say is,
"I only understand that you will only look for your subordinates when you need them. and when you look for them, they better be right at the click of your fingers otherwise you will almost get angry right away....when you give us work to do, you expect perfection (no doubt, this is the legal industry) but when you make mistakes, you keep quiet for a while and pretend nothing ever happened....I know you have had many secretarties come and go for a short period of time and many say that my place is a jinx area but I banned the curse, in the name of Jesus, for i know it is not true and those moments were temporary...."
But you know, outside of work, you are a very nice lady...very easy-going...everyone thinks so and so do i....

Well, enough of ramblings, If you are the one that has found this blog, by all means, read it and try to understand this young lady of 22 years old....
if you are not, then read it to know how you don't become such a boss....
I wonder if she ever found my blog....and what will she do, if she found my blog....at least no names are mentioned and only persons.....

Anyways, i got to go.....colouring my hair next, not too sure what colour though....Watch out for my hair soon :)))))

For Once, let's teach the kids the right values....That we should wait for everyone before we start the meal....So STOP throwing tantrum like a little kid! Grow up!!!

For two, let's start to learn to be more tactful in our words to each other.......

No. 3, is it me or is it them?? Should i change or start to help others and tell them what is the better way,......
Gosh! This is so irritating...

What should i do? Ideas anyone??

So it was COA today, at Katong Park....
One of the days when i feel that i had all the time in the world, for some reasons which i do not know....and had a huge breakfast in the long time that i never had...

the funny thing was that I got out of the house confidently and even took a bus out to realise that I do not know how to go to Katong Park...and seriously for people who do not stay around there will find it rather Uloooooo.......
It was rather warm but the atmosphere was God-blessed and the people, simply fun....as we freaked out about ballons being too huge, since its easier to burst by itself in the heat.....

We scream when ballons bursted by itself......
We freaked out when we hold huge ballons for the fear that it will burst in our own hands.....
We had fun teaching and feeding little Sheyenne to blow the balloons and to eat some lunch.....

Indeed the sun was hot but there was plans to be carried out and i am glad to be part of the deco team....who did such a wonderful job.....i can't blow balloons for nuts so tying balloons was my job.....haha.....Oh yea, it included entertaining the little Shey too...sometimes only though....

COA ended with a blast, with the kids being tired from the heat but looking forward to more of the events coming up.......
I'm glad and thankful the weather was fine, hot but with some breeze.....

One thing i learnt today;

kids will ALWAYS be kids!
and i am glad they are also growing day by day....:)